It has been a month since I had a time for myself. During that time, I was able to go to the mall, had a haircut and shop a little for my girl. I was out for merely two hours but it was like half-day already for me. I miss my girl that I was thinking of her most of the time. I was worried that she might cry when she can't see me or she won't be able to sleep well... so I told myself that I won't leave the house without her.

This was my thought a month ago. This time I wanted to have another 2 hours or more 'me' time. First, I want the father and daughter to have bonding time together. I want them to try to be alone, without me an inch away. I also want to relax and stroll around the mall without thinking of anything. I want to window shop and look for new clothes (for the little one, again). I want to eat without hurrying, enjoying each bite of my meal. I want another haircut, my hair has grown long, wavy and uneven. Just an hour or 2 of quiet time...

But then again, what guarantee would I have that I won't miss my girl? That I won't hurry going home?

While waiting for that 'me' time to be available, I'll have to be contented with the benefits of being a stay-at-home mom. No more diet pills for me though I heard of several good nuphedra reviews already. No more paying for nanny, which means little savings that can be used for payment of other bills instead... and a lot of smilestones for me. I am the first one to see the developments of my girl.